love for darkness or night, where i find confort and relaxation. earlier i used to be afraid of the dark. infact, when i was 11, i was afraid to sleep in a room full of darkness. I purposefully insisted my parents to install a lamp or a dim light. i feared any abnormal/bizaree situation which might occur twilight. Presence of any such energy which might be hard to contemplate. i had a constant fear of any such bizaree thing , of which i was sure could be exprienced under dark circumstances. This year taught me how to stay under those dark circumstances and enjoy it. Right from the beginning of this year i have been taught so many things that such psychological conflicts aren’t even considered important now.
i used to fear a monster but then i realised that it is within us and only i am responsible for the situation i am in. yes, i love darkness.. no, i am not afraid of the dark. i am afraid of the darkness that overpowers my life and mind everyday. i am afraid of my unconscious. i deliberately do not want get aware of the those deep thought, ideas, desires embedded in my unconscious.
2016 had been a wonderful year.. i must say.. some people are like blessings and others are like lessons. It made me a better person than last year. Confident, self aware, satisfied me in a lot of ways, removed many masked faces. Made me love darkness in such a way that the best part about everyday of 2016 was the dark hues i enjoyed every night. i love them.. it depicts my life in numerous ways. sometimes i feel exactly like the way darkness seems to be.. calm, uncertain, scary but beautiful.